Confession #23

I totally forgot about this. c:

That doesn’t count, does it? Ok.

Halloween is slowly becoming my favorite holiday. I don’t know what it is, but the color and fun and dress-up-ness is seriously making me excited for October 31st already. The Halloween stuff we have at work makes me squeal.

Confession #22

I am finding it easier to deal with being alone. As a matter of fact, I am finding happiness in myself like I never have before.

He told me I would be nothing without him and no one would ever love me the way he did. But I am so much more of my own person now, and a person that I love. And if I never find someone else, that is okay by me, because I don’t need someone to love me. I am standing on my own for the first time, and I find it beautiful. I feel so complete by myself that I think when I do make the choice to be with someone, it is going to be such a different experience than ever before and it will only make things better. I will remain independent and rely on myself for my happiness and satisfaction with life.

Confession #21

I get so lonely so quickly. I think I’m just the kind of person who is happier in a relationship. :/

Confession #20

In the past month, I have had more anxiety attacks than I thought possible. They come on an almost daily basis. Even when I’m at work.

Confession #19

I only wanted to get a degree in paralegal because it would only be two years and I have been too scared of getting what I really want which may take up to eight.

But I’m gonna try really hard not to be scared anymore.

Confession #18

My biggest weakness is letting people go.

I don’t like the thought of there being people out there who deserve a second chance. I don’t like having people who can’t be ‘friends’. I hate burning bridges. If someone was a friend to me in the past, I never want them to feel like I’m not available anymore. Even if they hurt me, or I hurt them. I always want to apologize and make things work.

There will always be people who don’t like me out there, but to think they called me a friend (or more) at one point makes me feel like there’s something that can be repaired.

I would consider this a good thing, but in some cases people crossed a line and really hurt me. Yet I still want them to have someone to confide in, find a friend in, have fun with and just plain be happy with. I can’t stand the thought someone is hurting, or lonely, and could turn to me for answers because I know who they are.

I’ve done a lot of changing, and I am pretty much always ready to apologize for what I’ve done and do everything I can to help anyone. Out of all the people I’ve fallen out with, I think there are only like. Two exceptions to this rule. But, usually, I can’t close my heart off to anyone.

Confession #17

My father and I used to be much, much closer than we are now, and I miss the relationship we used to have. I still love him dearly and see him often, but it’s not the same.

Confession #16

I think it’s really stupid to cover your facebook page in activities that are illegal or that you are not old enough to participate in. I don’t really care what you do, but being under 21 and posting pictures of you with alcohol or writing about “SMOKIN A PHAT L WIT MAH HOMIEZ” just kinda looks dumb when these are things you kind of don’t want to be caught doing.

Not that I think covering your FB in this stuff will get you caught every time, but I think people are throwing discretion out the window. This goes for your photo album consisting entirely of your ass or boobs hanging out. I get we’re young and having fun, but don’t forget this will more than likely follow you when you’re trying to become an employee of a respectable company or something.

Confession #15

You will have infinite more luck getting me on a plane to Alaska as opposed to one going to California.

I would be totally fine never stepping foot in that state for the rest of my life.

Confession #14

This was the first christmas in 8 years that I have truly enjoyed. I’ve let my past grudges about christmas go and I think it will finally be a holiday I can enjoy.

Confession #13

I really never ever liked Harry Potter. I just couldn’t get into it. I’m not big on wizards, I guess, but reading the books never sparked anything inside of me, either. I can sit here and tell you all about how my favorite author effects me, and how his writing is something I hold dear, but never understand what about HP you get. But, on a hilarious side-note, I made fun of the Harry Potter tattoo this guy I was hooking up with had and he got so offended he almost left LOL.

Confession #12

I have an unhealthy obsession with Minesweeper. Expert mode. akdjhgs;